Sometimes I believe that and other times I want to call bullshit. It’s the time of year when everyone is feeling generous and when you spend time with your families. But what if the only person you really want to spend time with isn’t here anymore?
This will be the third Christmas without my dad. It’s fine. My mom and I have formulated somewhat of a new holiday normal, which is basically just ignoring the holiday all together. Last year, I went out and bought all kinds of Christmas decorations and planned this whole thing, so when she came to my house it would feel like my dad would’ve wanted it to. But this year I’ve been so much busier leading up to now and I don’t have the energy to force it this time.
So if you’re anything like me and you don’t feel like having holly jolly tunes shoved down your throat, consider listening to something that’s going to meet you exactly where you’re at. The best example of this that has been released this year would be Runaway June’s “Blue Roses.”
I can honestly listen to this song over and over again and it still gives me chills every time. The harmonies are absolutely perfect. It almost feels like they carry you along this sad journey of intense feelings of helplessness. The lyrics are honest and describe feelings of loss in such a relatable way that I haven’t heard before.
It’s okay if you aren’t overjoyed for the holidays, you aren’t alone. Just as with every other day of the year, music will be there to take comfort it.