Sara Evan‘s “I Want You” off her new album, Words, is such an emotionally relatable track. This song will speak to anyone who’s ever loved someone who they know they probably shouldn’t love. Through it all, you still want him.
1. People might think you’re crazy for loving him.
“People say I’m probably crazy. So I’m probably crazy.”
Naturally, people who care about you don’t want to see you hurt. These people, your friends, and family, were the ones who had to deal with your psycho, broken self the last time he hurt you and I’m sure they’d rather not deal with that again. They are looking out for you and from their perspective, it makes sense for them not to approve.
This becomes a difficult situation when you find yourself loving him even after everything he’s put you through. You can’t expect your loved ones to necessarily understand and immediately jump on board. You just have to trust yourself and remember at the end of the day, it’s your relationship. Let them think you’re crazy. Hell, you might be.
2. It’s hard to hate someone you love.
“I know that I should probably hate you but I can’t hate you. It’s like my heart is in a room of razors. I can’t escape you.”
No one else will understand. You might not even understand this yourself. He broke you. He suddenly at one point turned into the worst thing that ever happened to you. Yet you find yourself forgetting that point, and remembering the time that he was the best thing that ever happened to you. It’s hard for you to hate someone you once loved so much. You feel trapped.
3. Everyone has some ugly.
“I’ll take you with all of your good and your ugly. I still want you. Can’t help it I do.”
The good, the bad, the ugly. You still love him. Everyone has their flaws, their low points, their own kind of ugly. You’re just seeing his ugly through a different lens as someone you love which really makes all the difference. Because when you love someone, you’re able to dig deep and find forgiveness. Even what seems unforgivable, you manage to find grace for…because that is love.
4. Letting go is easier said than done.
“I’m tragically addicted. Hopelessly committed. You’re no good for me and I admit it. I want you, oh I want you.”
A million people could tell you that you deserve better, that he’s no good, that you’re crazy and you’d still find yourself loving him. Ultimately, it doesn’t matter what people say. You’ll have to come to terms with it on your own. It might end up being the best or worst decision to keep on loving someone who hurt you. The thing is though, you won’t know until you get there. And YOU are the one who has to get there.